Stream of Conscience

“Just tune in, turn off, drop out, drop in, switch off, switch on, and explode”

So this week has been absolutely, positively, without a doubt one of the busiest weeks I have ever experienced. I was scheduled to work 30 hours this week in addition to my normal class load. I had a political science paper due tuesday. I thought it was due thursday when I found out Tuesday that it’s due Tuesday. I had about half of it completed. So I finished my day classes and ran home. I decided to skip my boring night class to finish my poli. sci. paper. I still had a test in plato, a paper in strategic management, and a test in auditing to study for. Wednesday i called off work and started studying for my tests. I found out wednesday that my strategic management paper was pushed back till a date to be determined. Yesterday came and went. I took my tests and Plato went a lot better than i thought it would. Auditing went as well as I thought.

 “Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box; they tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.”

Lately I’ve been kinda down. I’m sure the sheer exhaustion has a lot to do with it. Right now Kelly and I are living off what little income we have plus what’s left of my savings. For a guy that’s huge… for me (an accountant) it’s even more so. We’re banking so much my getting a good job. I need money to cover expenses plus start saving again. It’s always on the the back of my mind, but I have faith God will provide for us. I’ve also been really self-conscious about my appearance. Over the past few months I’ve put on about 20 pounds… which is really noticeable. I’ve decided to start exercising regularly, and I’ve changed my diet already… it’s hard when a double cheeseburger is so much cheaper than salad stuff. I just don’t need to be stressed about this when there’s a lot of other stuff going on. For now, I’ll be like the blue people…

 

“They’re great! They’re just… chilled out!”  

Married life is better than ever. Kelly’s been wonderful and supportive through everything. She’s amazing and I love her so much. We’re surviving though. Keeping faith that God will take care of us when we get to Cumberland. 

 

47 days till Maryland.  

Blogging on a Monday Night

So life remains to be busy; but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Kelly and I have been having a good time. It..t seems as though blogs tend to be a be a means of venting frustrations…or complaining and not feeling guilty…that’s not the case for some people, but i know that’s what my blog can be about…so before i write about what’s bothering me, I’ll write about what I’m thankful for.This weekend with my wife has been really good. we did absolutely nothing, and it was amazing. Work had been difficult and it made that much-needed rest all the sweeter. It was truly a blessed sabbath.Kelly and i also had a good night tonight. I don’t really like reality tv shows, but there’s one on ABC about newly weds and it’s turned out to be a good conversation starter We’re learning more about each other’s communication styles and what we need to do to make the other happy. We want to be as close to each other as possible, and we love being around each other, and we’re learning to do that in better and better ways.I’ve been able to apply to a lot of jobs. although it’s a bit early to really get serious about applying, mom’s really been on the ball for me, and i really appreciate it… hopefully the openings will keep open till may ( 2 months in the world of business is close to an eternity).So here’s what’s frustrating:TARGET CORPORATIONmy boss was in a bad mood. he’s unappreciative and kind of a jerk. but i suppose you’ll have that. i’m really tired of target. i’ve worked there since august doing the same trivial tasks. i do the same work over and over again. it’s getting boring. i’m tired of going unnoticed. I want to be salaried. i want benefits. i want more security. i want opportunities for growth. i think those are things that God intended work to be for men. Since creation it was to give us purpose and be a special part of our lives. and i’ve come to realize that Target is not my final calling. I must acquire the patience to endure this necessary step in the process that will refine me into a good employee and hopefully manager one day.i love my wife and struggle with being content with my job.life is beautiful. 

THIS JUST IN!

WE GOT THE APARTMENT ON WASHINGTON STREET!!!!!!W3 m0v3 1n 0n the 14th of m4y!f4r3w3ll stupid old b34v3r f4lls! 

Today

So today has been up and down… mostly up, but one down is enough to put a damper on the evening. Work was good. I was busy and went fast (especially the second half). Class went well. When i got home, the apartment smelled bad because of some chicken we had the other night. I took the garbage out and lit every candle within a one mile radius. The job search is going okay..however…there’s someone in mine and kelly’s past that really stirs things up… it’s a her… she used to like me and has had a really hard time getting over her feelings… in fact i don’t think she’s tried at all. anytime she tries to communicate, kelly gets upset; and understandably so.If i were to die right now…there would be only one thing i would want to say before my last breath escapes me…and that is to let my wife know just how much i love her. I never want anything to make kelly feel like she has to compete for my time or attention. I’ve done everything i can to avoid that girl… i just want kelly to know how i feel. how my desire is only for her and her well being. i love you kelly. you’re my love. my future. my wife. 

207 Washington Street Apt. 4

So my weekend here in cumberland with kelly is quickly coming to an end. It was good, albeit short. I had my interview at Timbrook’s on the seventh. It went well i suppose. Since I don’t know Freddie that well, I had a hard time reading him; so I’m not sure if I rocked it or sucked.

Then I started the interview process with the United States Postal Service, which will be interesting. So I’m known for my disdain for government bureaucracy… but they pay $20/hour… that’s base pay. that’s for a window clerk. There are 2,080 hours in a year, which puts me just over 41k. They said there’s required overtime that usually puts people over 57k. Why, yes I would love to deliver mail : )

I still have to take a test and get an interview first… so that’s still in the works. I also have my cover letter, resume, and references being sent out to First Peoples Credit Union and the Western Maryland Health System. I have faith that God will provide for Kelly and me… I’m sure I’ll get one of those four jobs.

Throughout our visit, kelly and i had been looking at houses and apartments to rent; we had an appointment for saturday at 11 to go look at a one bedroom apt. on washington street, which is in the rich historical district of Cumberland. Kelly and I were so tired, we were almost going to call and cancel, but we dragged ourselves out of bed and went. Boy, are we glad we did! the apartment was beautiful, and even though it’s only one bedroom, it’s rather large. The size, the location, and the price were the good things. The lack of laundry, awkward closets, and hosts of stairs were the downers… but nothing a laundramat and an extra dresser can’t fix ; )

welp we’re off to church, so we’ll see you soon

Another Day In The Life of Me

I’m getting tired of target. It’s not rewarding. It’s full of foolish people. So last week, I ( a backroom person) worked in the backroom from start to finish of my shift. Then this week our leaders had us push. so instead of backstocking and pulling stuff out of the warehouse, i was in the store rotating perishable food and putting new stuff on shelves. i hate that job. and the only reason i was doing it was because the team that normally does it is 1) inept and 2) short-handed. a killer combo.

So I, as gracefully as i possibly could, said “this is getting old” to my team lead. he then later took me into the electronics stockroom (where they can’t hear me scream)… he started off with noticing that i was complaining… i panicked and apologized for being negative. You see, Target encourages us to be positive. delusionally positive. like someone in Hiroshima in 1945 saying “what’s that pleasant glow on the horizon?” kind of positive. So he interrupted me and said, “dude. i’m not mad. i just don’t want you to quit. you work hard.”
and then i felt good.

Also on friday, i busted the last hump i had ( a busy week required me to bust a lot of humps…. sorry fergie) to get to school after work. the roads were gosh awful… i parked on the most level place i could find and ran (slid on my arse) the whole way to northwood. Laruen P. saw this and laughed at me in my disheveled state and said, “classes are cancelled.”
boo.

i went in anyways…i figured the very least i could do was talk to the prof. for a bit…get my money’s worth. I ended up talking to Prof. Raver and the head of the business department, Dr. Nutter for a half hour at least. it was really good and i learned so much. that’s what it’s supposed be like. education that is…. i was excited to learn about what they had to say, and they were clearly glad to have a student who cared…. it was practical, reflected years of experience and theory and just…pure… it was good.

Kelly’s at work right now, so i’ve been reading Good to Great and watching Friends. She needs to come home. I miss her : (

Funniest Thing I Heard Today

so i was going to post the funniest thing i heard today…then i found out it i probably shouldn’t.so..j/k